The Doll 36（文稿）

英文有声《第43条疤痕》三部曲

Chapter 36
Without moving his eye from the scope, Lumani returned the phone to his pocket, drew a breath, and tried to block out the sting.
He shouldn’t care, had no reason to care what she said.
Prove himself stronger and smarter than his opponent. Reclaim the package. Kill what stood in his way. Succeed in the mission. These were the things that mattered.
She, with her words and her strategy, was not a person but an obstacle and a challenge. She was prey. Formidable prey, but prey nonetheless.
Yet it pleased him to speak with her, and it puzzled him that it should. Perhaps like a cat playing with the mouse: entertainment before food, although the food had just bit him, and this he didn’t like.
Lumani lay prone against the wooden bench, off which he’d tossed cushions and dragged from the living area, propped on his forearms, rifle on a bipod, the scope and muzzle continuing out between gauzy curtains that hung over open balcony doors four stories up and at an angle to the hotel.
He had a clear shot of the entrance— the only way his prey would be able to reach the street— and she would be a fool to wait inside with the police on their way in.
She could have left the last of the trackers in an empty room and jumped the garden wall or gone out a window, while, like a fool, he waited her out, but his predator’s instinct had said that she remained in the hotel.
Feeling the trap, he’d sent Tamás. Now Tamás was dead, and instead of flushing her, as Lumani had intended,
he was left second-guessing, watching the entrance while police cars circled, forced to wait out instinct in the hide he’d accessed by bullying the old lady who’d been home when he’d come knocking.
She was in the kitchen now, secured to a chair with her own tablecloth and quieted with a freshly laundered dish towel in her mouth.
He might eventually kill her. Or he might not. He was not a thug like the others, brutes who couldn’t adapt to situations as they unfolded.
He was not useless overdeveloped muscle who took pleasure in the screams and the crying and the fear, who felt manliness in unearned respect or felt nothing at all.
His job was the capture, and he was a professional to whom killing was occasionally a part of the work:
messy but necessary, preferably executed from the business end of a rifle where he wasn’t forced to touch the dead.
The screaming sirens were in front now, four cars with engines running and lights flashing, uniforms approaching the front door with far less precaution than he would have deemed prudent.
She would need to exit the hotel soon unless she planned to be taken into custody because of Tamás’s death.
In anticipation of the hit, Lumani rested his index finger alongside the trigger guard, controlling his breathing so his heartbeat didn’t pulse heavy through his fingers, his hands, his shoulder, and knock off his aim.
Onlookers, summoned by the sirens like zombies to the living, gathered from apartments and shops, curious, stupid, stupid people with their cell phone cameras waiting to catch some action to send to friends or post online,
lucky people because Tamás had gone in to blow down doors and not the entire building.
Sirens. Police. Crowds. And still no sign of his prey.
Questions and self-doubt percolated and mixed into a potent cocktail. He couldn’t afford another failure.
Inside his head, the sparklers tickled, the collapse was there at the edge of his senses, creeping closer because of the need for sleep and the ongoing lack of success.
Soon. Soon enough he could lock himself into a hotel room for days and pump toxins and chemicals into his system in a form of rapturous release from the pressure of perfection and the agony of rejection and nonexistence.
But not yet. Lumani took his eye off the scope. The window of opportunity was closing.
He risked the streets being cordoned off, risked getting caught in a random photograph posted on the Internet, risked visual proof that tied him to the scene when the police came around for witnesses.
He inched backward, drawing the rifle with him. Froze.
The prey and the package barreled through the door, huddled together and covered in dust as if they’d escaped a bomb blast.
Eye returned to the scope, Lumani followed them and drew in the magnified version: Michael, bleeding as she’d said, from her face and legs.
She limped and yelled about a shooter, switching between perfect English and broken Italian, words that he read on her lips.
Her clothes were different. Everything was different. And the package— good God— worthless now, emaciated and hairless.
Officers who hadn’t yet entered the hotel ushered the women away from the door, victims to safety,
and once they were away from the door, the curious and the crowds drew nearer so that Michael’s head dipped and dodged between others’, limiting his line of fire.
Lumani’s lips twisted into a vicious smile. She’d waited to use the police and the crowds as diversion and deflection; she’d timed this to limit his ability to take the shot.
He snorted. As if that would make any difference.
Crosshairs on the target, Lumani calculated, deliberated, waited through the movement. Exhaled slow and measured.
And then Michael turned, leaned beyond the brown hair on the head that separated her from him, and stared straight at him.
Finger to her temple and thumb in the air, mock gun to her own head, she pulled an imaginary trigger.
His heart reacted as if physically tagged. Another slow breath in countermeasure and he moved his finger from trigger guard to trigger.
So little pressure to send the death. But his hand shook.
The crowd parted slightly. Michael’s back was toward him again and she, with the bald girl at her side, moved slowly away from the hotel.
So little pressure. He could make the hit. He could end the life of this person who, by her very existence, proved his own worthlessness, who had with no effort earned Uncle’s approving affection.
If he could calm. But his heart continued to beat heavy and he felt the thud in his fingers. The kind of beating that wouldn’t be stilled by breathing or lack of breath.
Confused, he pushed back the panic at this new imperfection. No. Not imperfection, this was strength. For the first time in memory, the kill wasn’t business.
This was personal, and this beating was passion warming: the first sensation of what it meant to desire the death of another for pleasure.
More sirens wailed from far down the street. Lumani drew backward. Disassembled the rifle and packed it up.
Returned to the kitchen, a room with barely the floor space for the tiny table and two chairs tucked to its sides: a room built for the lonely.
The woman was in the center of the area, bound as he’d left her, but the cloth was out of her mouth;
she’d found a way to rid herself of the gag but hadn’t called out or raised the alarm— a wise choice that had kept him from having to permanently silence her.
Her chin raised when he stood in the doorway, face haloed with short curly hair clearly dyed to hide the gray.
He imagined that she, in her independent solitude, might be a grandmother;
wondered what it must feel like to have a pillowy mother figure with the warmth and care and universal acceptance mothers were said to provide. He envied the imagined offspring.
The woman stared up at him with soft rheumy eyes while he deliberated eliminating this witness as a professional should,
then he stepped into the room and patted the old woman on her head— a form of affection, he thought, to this mother of sorts.
His movement came jerky and awkward and not at all familiar to what he expected a touch to an old woman should be.
Lumani blocked the apartment door open on his way out so that when he was gone, she could call for help.
This was like the people who paid money to… What was the American word? Offset? Yes, to offset a carbon footprint for their wasteful lifestyles.
He had paid in professionalism for the pursuit of death. No matter that it was passion for watching another die that spurred him on now, he was not like Arben and Tamás.
To prove his point, he had allowed the old woman to live, and now he would go kill Michael.