023: A Depressed & Insecure State

Navigating Career Change with ZakkeeAhmad

(Recorded May 20, 2020) Over the May long weekend, I celebrated the launch of allegorychai.com AND my first ecommerce sale. I was vibrating high! Then I crashed into a depressive mindset on Monday and it persisted & was furthered on Wednesday when I recorded this episode. I always knew I wanted the shitty days to be part of the story that I told, but I hadn't been doing a great job of capturing them before this. In typical poetic fashion, life poked me and I paid attention: if I believe that I am the kind of person who has a story worth telling, I have to not only capture it all, but continue to attack my vulnerabilities and push myself to get stronger and better every day. In this episode, I don't describe how I came out of the poor mindset and feelings of depression because I hadn't when I recorded this... I talk about it because it's my truth. Tom Bilyeu posted something on his Insta story recently to the effect of "don't try to suppress the negative emotions or hide from them because they will always exist. The key is to learn how to handle them." I still haven't done a great job with applying that concept, but it is certainly something I want to work harder on. (For the record, Tom's suggestion was about habit loop triggers, which may be a topic for another day on this podcast...?)